Just finished watching the Caprica DVD that came out last Tuesday. Totally gonna love watching that show. Too bad it does not come out until 2010. Who knows what the world will be like then? Psycho-analyzing myself again tonight. Thinking about my life. Where I've been and where I'm going. I'm introspective like that. So here we are. My thoughts are very sporatic and random right now so I'm going to just list them out for you and go from there.
- It seems like everyone in the world falls in love so easily... except for me. Am I just odd? I think that I've been completely captivated by another person a total of two times in my entire life. And when you experience emotions that extreme, everything else pales in comparison. I've grown to learn that it takes time to learn and love another person. I'm incredibly patient about such things, but sometimes it just never happens. I think I've become so obsessed with avoiding negative things that I forget that you have to take the good and the bad when it comes to other people.
- It's amazing how insanely logical I am. My brain processes everything as 1s and 0s.. like computer code. Even emotional situations. I map out the most likely outcomes of any situation based on my observations of outside stimuli, and I cross-reference that with what are "staples" of my personality matrix. And most of my decisions go from there. Does that make me dull, boring, or just practical? I'm just working based on the evidence that I have in front of me. When I am presented with a viable reason to rework my theories, then perhaps I will walk down that path. But for now, my judgement stands.
- I need to see some positive examples of long term relationships. I mean other than my parents and other select family members. I need more evidence to make a case for LTR because right now the cards are stacked against the positive outcomes of such and endeavor.
- I wish someone would surprise me and be different for a change.
- I wonder if my previous life as a JesusFreak has something to do with the fact that I have more faith in a "higher power" than in flesh and blood people.
- I need to go to bed.
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